Below is a great article on pain and suffering and the human condition. To all my nonbelieving friends who tell me I cling to my faith cuz it’s an electric blanket, I say no way. I submit you all can often cling to the need for an answer to your pain and suffering – some platitude, or reason that it exists, some answer or drug that will fix it or these days, claiming I want to die so I can escape it. There is no answer that our puny brain can begin to really understand when we are so stuck in our fear and anxiety over it. Only God, through His Son Jesus, tells us outright to pick up our cross and follow Him. This is because in Him we will discover our calling, in our suffering, in our joy, in our pain, in our love, in our faith. John Paul II suffered unbelievably with Parkinson’s. At the end of his life, he was bent over, could barely speak, his hands shook, his sight was pitiful. And then, then, he could share with all those who suffer, all those in pain…and you know what he would say to them? “Be not afraid!” with a smile…because Christ who suffered like us defeats pain and suffering and death!!! In Christ, You will not break!
“But in that terrific tale of the Passion there is a distinct emotional suggestion that the author of all things (in some unthinkable way) went not only through agony, but through doubt…In a garden Satan tempted man: and in a garden God tempted God. He passed in some superhuman manner through our human horror of pessimism. When the world shook and the sun was wiped out of heaven, it was not at the crucifixion, but at the cry from the cross: the cry which confessed that God was forsaken of God…Alone of all creeds, Christianity has added courage to the virtues of the Creator. For the only courage worth calling courage must necessarily mean that the soul passes a breaking point and does not break.”
I dont know your situation. I know you are in pain. Turn toward Him and ask Him to lead you where you need to go.
Read the article here.